After two decades of deep depression, endless therapy and medication, I took the plunge and enrolled in a meditation course, despite my deep skepticism toward anything "spiritual." Shortly after my second meditation, I suddenly experienced a profound sense of connection, realizing that my suffering was not a solitary existence. In that moment, I knew two things: first, that I had only scratched the surface of reality, and second, that I needed to dedicate myself to understanding this shift. I immediately quit my job in corporate real estate, sold my belongings, and left my home country in search of truth, and teachers who could point to it. 

Over the course of five years, I studied relentlessly moving between five countries,  prioritising this hunger for understanding. I inquired into the nature of my being, spent months in silence, and came to find a deep, and unwavering presence at the core of my being and everything that I turn my attention to. While this realisation brought with it an ease, contentment, and joy that I didn’t know to be possible, it also came with waves of intense emotional surfacing, as long-held, unexamined experiences began to come into the light.

It started with nagging sensations in my body, the sensations of fear, and anxiety. Restful sleep was hard to get. In hindsight, having support at this stage would have been ideal. Instead, I naively believed the story told in many spiritual circles, that awakening was enough to solve all my problems. Panic attacks and flashbacks suddenly became a part of my life, along with the most visceral fear of abandonment, and the belief that I was unloveable. The intensity of these old, unresolved emotional patterns became so overwhelming that it impacted my physical health and required intensive care. Over a period of three years, deep emotional issues came to the surface, and I dedicated myself to the slow, intentional work of integration. This process continues to unfold, bringing gradual relief and greater freedom from old emotional burdens.

With years of experience in navigating my own inner conflicts and deeply-rooted patterns I find joy in helping others free themselves from the tension between what we know to be true, and how we express ourselves in the world. I call it, closing the gap. Let’s close the gap between who you know yourself to be and the limiting stories your system still carries.